I got my wisdom teeth out. Apparently when my mom and the nurse dragged me out to the car after, I said "I feel like I'm drunk" to my mom. I have no recollection of this. Most of you wont want to read this entire post cuz it looks long, but I think it's worthwhile.
To preface, I've been putting off this inevitable post, but it seems I dont have much more time before everyone leaves anymore.
Well everyone, this is it. No more "hey! I'll see you tomorrow!" promises, no more guaruntee that we'll see the people we've seen pretty much everyday the last 4 years of our lives ever again. Yes, I realize that's not looking at the bright side of things, but that possibility is there. It is time that we will find out who are true friends are, who will be with us to the end. We've all been saying "high school's over" to deal with problems with friends and whatever drama, but now high school truly is over. We're all going to be scattered across the state and country, and a fight with a friend now could possibly to lead to years of no communication. Don't let that happen. I would like to say that if I have ever made anyone mad about anything, I'm sorry. I dont want to lose anyone over it.
As we prepare to take the next step in our lives, I can't help to think how everything is going to change. I've been thinking about it all summer; this supposed "last summer" together. Every night that something didnt go on I thought of it as a night wasted. Who know's when we'll see each other again. Of course it calms us to make empty promises such as I'll come and visit you at school, but it wont be that easy to do so, and we know it.
Unlike people going to MSU or other colleges, I'm not going to college with that many of my school friends. I feel like the friends I'll make will replace the ones from home. But I'll try not to do that, just add friends instead of replacing. We all have to admit it, though this summer has been fun, in the back of our minds we always kept fresh that we're never going to be with these people ever again in the same situation. I guess it sort of made the summer weird, like a pretense of happiness clouded by the depressing thought of departure. It's sucks to think in two weeks I'll be gone, and even less time before many of you will be too. Some of you in less than a week. It's sad. I dont know any other way to put it than that simple phrase. It's sad. Being away not only from friends, but family as well. I can't even stand to think about it any more than I have to, and yet it's still happening. This is no skeleton we can put in our closet.
There are just so many people I'm going to miss. Sorry if this post doesn't sound "manly", but it's true. All the friends I made this year and throughout high school. People who have supported me through thick and thin, helped each other out through the hardest times, the happiest times, and now the last time. If there's anything we need to say to each other, this is it. We may not get the oppurtunity to do so again. Sure there's gonna be 5, 10, 20 year reunions and so on, but that is an awfully long time to regret something.
But enough about the reality shock. With all the time we have left here together, let's actually do something instead of pretending that we're making plans and then bitching when nothing happens. And when we do go, let's keep a contant reminder of each other and all the fun times we had together. Whether it's parties you remember, or just a sunday afternoon you spent with doing nothing with your best friends, remember these times. Memory can either be an anathema or blessing, it just depends what you want it to be. Here comes the cliche of the entry: Keep in touch. Even if it's just a 2 minute phone call or message, hearing from old friends is a great feeling.
I wrote this once, and I'll write it again. So to all my friends that I will be leaving for the year and maybe forever, as our paths lead us down several different roads, I ask one thing, and one thing only. Remember the times we shared, the meaningful conversations we had, remember the good times, the parties, the late nights... but most of all, remember me. I love you guys, I really do, and I dont know how I could have made it through high school without all of you there.
I'm Feeling: 
nostalgic
Song of the Moment: Eagle Eye Cherry - Save Tonight